illia
Writer / Essayist / Overthinker
she/her | thirtysomething | ♌︎ | pan/poly/demi | wwc
BYF/DNI
I create and support content that is intended for adults and addresses mature themes. Since I'm an old biddy, and also share and RT adult content on main (@radovanryn) and my NSFW twitter (@leahas2hands), please do not follow either of those accounts unless you are 18+. My Lea/Axel positivity account (@LTakeurmeds) is SFW, all ages welcome!
I believe that fanfiction and fanart is a fantastic space for creative experimentation and expression, including erotica and sensitive topics. For me, this has meant exploring themes related to gender identity and sexuality, depression and anxiety, grief, and mysticism in many of my most recent stories.
However, I understand that this content may make some people uncomfortable, and I won't be offended if someone wants to unfollow, mute, or block me.
I'm too old for drama. I try to maintain a positive fandom space, and don't like to get involved in fandom discourse, character bashing, or call-out posts. That said, I will not tolerate blatant bigotry, racism, sexism, homophobia, xenophobia, or perspectives that deny an individual's right to express their gender, sexuality, cultural identity, and personal dignity.
Finally, I do not interact with content that romanticizes adult/minor sexual relationships. This includes content in which minor characters have been "aged up."
Fandom
Current Obsession: Kingdom Hearts
I have been in-and-out of fandom for twenty years or so. A friend sent me a .gif of Lea (Axel) in early 2018, and a few months later I discovered the Master Isa AU (https://archiveofourown.org/collections/master_isa) and it spiralled pretty quickly from there.
LEAXELEAXELEAXELEAXELEAXELEAXEL--
"Comfort character" doesn't do him justice. Lea/Axel is the character that got me into KH. Most of my fandom contributions are Lea-centric stories and/or Axel character studies, and I go absolutely feral for Axel-nort.
Pictured Above: Perfection.
What Gives Me Joy
AkuSai/LeaIsa
AkuDem
AkuXigSai
XigAkuDem (divorce-era)
XemAkuSai
...and Lea's quarter-life crisis <3
In-Progress
[untitled non-binary Lea fic]
Status: Drafting, ~8,400 words
“I… don’t match,” he mutters to himself. Nevertheless, Isa hears him, and cranes his neck so that he can watch as Lea stares forlornly at his clothes.
“You’re half-naked.” Lea groans and buries his hands in his hair, ruffling the disheveled locks even further. He squeezes his eyes shut, too, unable to keep looking at everything that he has and wanting none of it.
“No, I mean--” he stammers, still struggling (and failing) to put words to the disquiet that’s been building inside of him. “I don’t match. Something’s not right.”
2/7 Days [working title,
sequel to "Unbroken Paths"]
Status: Outlined
[Preview forthcoming]
Trust Exercise [XemLeaIsa,
post-KH3 AU, pwp]
Status: Planned, ~502 words
“Hush,” Isa commands, shoving Lea backwards so that the redhead lands on his back, near the center of their oversized mattress. They’ve only just begun sharing a bed, for sleep as well as other activities, and it’s Isa’s intention to help his oldest friend learn to relax and enjoy himself with his first lover. Likewise, Isa knows how Xemnas still struggles, uncertain of his place now that he’s free of Xehanort’s bidding. The silver-haired man needs to understand that for all his skittishness, Lea will accept him into their lives. But first, trust must be built--on both sides.